MTV Voices released their interview with Esmée they did a while ago. It’s defenitely worth the read! She talks about how she got discovered, leaving Tennman Records, going back to youtube and more.
My name is Esmee Denters, and my passion took me from Holland to the Hollywood Hills. I grew up in a small town in Holland and Justin Timberlake was the one who discovered me online. It was really crazy -one day I was just singing for fun, and the next I got flown over to the U.S. to meet with Justin. I was the first artist on his record label – which was insane.
Life completely changed in about six months. One day I was working at home in a pancake house and six months later I was on the Oprah Winfrey show and travelling the world – everything went so quickly but it was a really incredible experience. I guess sometimes it felt really surreal because it all happened so fast that I barely felt like I was in the moment at the time. But it was a once in a life-time opportunity so I ran with it. I moved to L.A. to record my first album; it was amazing – there are so many people that are trying to accomplish and live their dreams. In Holland, not a lot of people believe they can achieve anything, it’s a different state of mind! People in Holland are more down to earth, as opposed to the U.S. where people dream big and are very career driven
I really had a lovely childhood in Holland. I think the main thing I took from my country is that we’re all very open minded, which I’m really proud of. We appreciate people from all races and cultures – it’s a complete melting pot. When people think about Holland, they think about the red light district – It doesn’t necessarily annoy me as it is a part but that isn’t all that Holland is about. I saw the EMA’s in Amsterdam and I thought it was really great. It was really cool to watch all these big stars in my country. It really made me proud.
Leaving my record label was a long process and at the beginning it was very hard to deal with because my first gig was in front of 50,000 people opening up for Justin Timberlake. I started out so high that it was a massive blow to go from doing the biggest things to being like “Oh wow it feels like nobody has my back anymore”. I was out there on my own and had to find a way to continue to do music. My biggest fear was that I’d let my fans down, but so much is going on behind the scenes that they don’t know about. It isn’t all glamour, there are highs and lows – people like The Beatles, Lady Gaga and Katy Perry were all dropped from their first label. What I will definitely do differently the next time around is make sure that I live in the moment because once you’re catapulted into fame it goes so fast it’s hard to enjoy it because I was very nervous all the time and there was so much pressure – I’ll definitely appreciate it a lot more. It was hard adjusting back to living a ‘normal life’ at the beginning because I decided to move to London. I didn’t have any friends in London at the time but I had two top ten singles in the UK and people were really supportive. It’s kind of nice to also just have a normal life and be grounded and have those people in your life supporting you in what you’re doing, which I think is really important. So in that sense I am thankful that it happened as I did lose a lot of friends because my life was so hectic and I wasn’t able to keep in touch with a lot of people.
Going back to putting videos on YouTube again – in the beginning I was like, “Oh my god are they going to be upset with me because I haven’t posted any videos in so long?”. To go back felt really good because they were really supportive and understanding – it had been such a long time for them as well. To be able to put out new stuff and instantly see what they think and how they feel about it is really good because at the end of the day they’re the people that are buying the music and are going to see me out on the road. So yeah it feels really, really good [to be back online]. Cyber-bullying is a really important issue for our generation because everything is online and it’s hard to get away from that. It’s very hard and I can say still to this day, if I read something it still upsets me, because we’re all human and we all have feelings. It’s very personal when people say something about the way you look, and things like that, but it says more about them than it says about you. So you have to just brush it off – especially when you’re doing what you love. The fact you’re able to do it and people are watching you do it, that already says that you have the power.